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4.7.09 ; 5:11 PM

gahhhhhh ! skipped tuition on monday and mother found out.
pangchiwei said she showed a DULAN face when pnphang said that i didn't come, haha. apparently loads of people saw my mother's DULAN face, including siangyi, tkk, etcc ? OMFG.

kinda forgotten what happenedddddddd, haha.

friday, day 5 of unsolved lies
so you say that i cheated on you. didn't you cheat on me too ? the way you said like i was the only one wrong like that. && technically i didn't cheat on you, and neither did you cheat on me because there was nothing between us, just a wall full of lies.
i forgived you all the time and you con't even forgive me this once ? what makes you so special that there is different rules for me and you ? and you tell me that i didn't need to forgive you. thats the end ? this is it ? you and i deleting each other numbers from our phones ? lies just building out between us ?
i can't lie. i told you the truth yesterday, now, the ball is in your court, its your serve.
i played all the cards out.
waiting, ticktockticktockticktockkkkkkkkkkkkkk.

i was trying to send a message to yucin asking smtg, and i accidently sent it to desmond -_-
i was trying to frantically message szeteng, and i accidently sent it to bryan -_____-
wth is wrong with me these days !

is it wrong to be over you ? ;)

came back from tropicanacity just now, bought a few skirts that i didn't really like.

i think i'm so over it. what can i do if you refuse to forgive me? nothing. at one point i was super ready to apologise but i have passed that point now. you know what ?
whateverrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrrr.

tagged by Teressaaaaaaaa (:

What do you have:

Step-father

Step-mother

Step sister

Step brother

Brother

Sister

Sister in law

Half sister

Half brother

Nephew

Niece

Boyfriend/Girlfriend

Mobile phone

Own bathroom

Own room

Have/had a swimming pool

Have/had a hot tub

Guest room

Living room

Own computer

Own TV

Total so far: 8

Basketball net/hoop

Air hockey table

Pool table

Ping pong table

Football table

Total so far: 8

night stand

stereo in bedroom

DVD player in bedroom/portable

Total so far: 10

camera on phone

Go shopping at least once a week

expensive cologne/perfume

AIM/MSN

Total so far: 14

Go cart/car/quad

Guitar/drums/bass guitar

Piano/keyboard

any other instrument

Been on a cruise

Travelled out of the country

Travelled out of the continent

Had a personal trainer

expensive jewelery

met a celeb

Total so far: 22

Straightener/curling iron

Have been to a batting cage

Have $100 on you right now in cash at your house

credit card or ATM card or debit card or bank card

Have a TV in your room

Mirror in your room

window in your room

Total so far: 26

been to paris

been to rome

been to hawaii

been to mexico

been to jamaica

Total so far: 27

Parents have a car

Have owned or own a jet ski/boat

Had/have camped

Been to 3+ states

100+ buddies on facebook/myspace/friendster

Total so far: 31

Home cooked meal almost everyday

Been in a limo

Been in a helicopter

Own a camera

Have been to Disneyland/World more than 2 times

Total: 36

Post as:

1-25 = Humble! ( and tag 5 people )

26-40 = Average ( and tag 10 people )

41 -50 = Spoiled Teen! ( and tag 15 people )

51+ = Upper class snob! ( and tag 20 people )

I'll tag:

nooneeeeee, lame tag. how does that mean that you are spoiled by doing this inaccurate tag huh ?

3.7.09 ; 10:19 PM

OMGOMGOMGGGGGGGGGGGG. *speechless*
i'm so fucking sorry okay ! it was just a test. i never meant to [-]
how u do like it when someone tells you 'your love is a lie' ?!
i'm fucking sorry okay ! you don't know how i feel when u say something like that !
it was just a test to see whether YOU would [--------------]
what don't you understand ? i already told you everything !
i'm so sorry for blogging emo stuff. i just feel damn emo.
no mood to blog. sorry. i'm crying now.

how would u feel if someone send you this ?

the feeling sucks. ENDPOST.

Labels: EMO

28.6.09 ; 3:50 PM

ignore the lame picture

the best way to get over a break up is a hook up, ryteeeeeee ?

i'm really truely sorryx10. i know we've been manipulative and tricking you into doing something, just so that i can [?]

but its so not my fault. how can it be my fault to want out of this 'hot-and-cold' situation that always goes around between us ?

i'm sorry that i didn't tell you that i [?], but its because i presumed that we were [?]

i don't think that you understand the grasp of the situation, that i really hated it. one minute like this, one minute like that, i wanted out ! how could you not understand that ?

how can you say that you're disapointed in me when i should be the one that is feeling disapointed huh ? && don't tell me that you [-] to make me [-], because the implication that i feel is like you simply [-]

i didn't want to tell you because i simply didn't want it to be true, i wanted to be wrong, don't you understand ?

he was nothing in this game, this manipulation, i just wanted to test your reaction.

i just need to know whether [?]
well, yesterday we both started a new chapter of our life.

i'm so not pissed at you, belive me. i thought you were [?] so to get [?] i had to do this kind of thing.

enuff said.

are you still mad at me ?

yesterday saw Nicole in BSC, such a dead place, ate dinner in Grand Imperial, the food sucks, ew.

just looking at this picture makes me wanna puke.

Michael Jackson died. Oh, good ridance, i know thousands of people will disagree with me but i'm like 'serves him right !' since he forced underage boys to perform oralsex on him, ew much ? then loads of people were like telling Nicole & i go and watch his lameass tribute but we both we like 'whertevaaa dudes, we don't give a damn' and continued talking on the phone. yeahh~ he has a superduper moonwalk and yeahh, his music is uberly good, but that doesn't change the fact that he is a pervvvvvv !

26.6.09 ; 8:19 PM

came back from gym, then from curve !
everything seems to have sale nowadays.
i'm fineeeeee now (:
seanbeh told me something very funny today in school, the word 'NAIVE'
he said that our behhhloved ex english teacher called it 'nayyyy-eve', and i told her that was wrong, and she told that its the same ! wtflol ! haha :D

25.6.09 ; 11:00 PM

emo #1

can't you humans please for gawds sake let me blog in peace without quoting my blog and taking stuff out of context ?

urghhhhhh ! uberly low marks. uberly low grades. copied wrong answers.
still coldwar. nothing in common to talk anymore. the magic is gone for us. its just like a chore to talk to each other, racking our brains for something interesting to say, but in the end of the day, there is nothing left to be said because we don't feel what we felt at the beginning. you ignore me, i ignore you, is that how it is between both of us ? left with nothing, not even abit of what we had when we started ? we don't say it, but i guess its over, for real. its been over a long time, just that we didn't say it, because saying it was like meaning that it officially was over. but we both are just like on-and-off, so to say that its really over doesn't really hurt. that. much. i guess ? i just feel like breaking down and cry but the tears don't seem to come anymore. i guess crying was so last year.

oh well,
end of story.

21.6.09 ; 4:16 PM

yo ! parents out for golf, *they are golf maniacs* :D
test ? OHMYFUCKINGGAWD. i'm surely going to fail my maths, its like crapx10, and then what i copied from Gan i thought is the supersmartmahchinyee answer, and ... after the test he said it was his ! omgomgomglol !
but i think some beloved teachers know that we all got pakat, but as darren says, got no proof, unless like that idiotlimbeeain that use her CYBERSHOT camera phone, lols, to take pictures of people cheating, wtflol.
moral test ? wow easy-peasy peace of cake ! thanks to lokkangwen's WON-DA-FULL invention + the scanner ! *u-know-what-i-mean*

Bryan; h1n1 ! stay away, heh :D
and stay away from JalanDavidson humans, h1n1 !

watch this uberly lame vid:

&& wish me luck for my exam ! *grins*

13.6.09 ; 1:36 PM

Hello, Nicole here.I'm helping this Asshole do her freaking tag, yay me please :D

Be honest no matter what, then tag at least fifteen friends.

01. Who was your last text from?
Oh how would I know ehy? I'm guessing me :P

02. Where was your default picture taken?
I think she got it from some sorta website.

03. Your relationship status?
In a relationship lah durh!

04. Have you ever lost a close friend?
Perhaps.

05. What is your current mood?
Bored, cause shes probably in tuition now. Pffts.

06. How many siblings do you have?
She has none.

07. Whats your brother(s)/sister(s) names?
Already said none lah, ask so much for what ?

08. Where do you wish you were right now?
Not to be stuck tuitioning.

09. Have a crazy side?
Always.

10. Ever had a near death experience?
God knows.

11. Something you do a lot?
Call people up (yours truly) and talk crap.

12. Angry at anyone?
Always.

13. What's stopping you from going for the person you like?
Her fat ego -.-

14. When was the last time you cried?
Too inhumane to cry, sadly.

15. Is there anyone you would do anything for?
Obviously Nicole :)

16. What you think about when you are falling asleep?
Dreaming about weird stuff.

17. Who was the last person you talked to on the phone?
Me, as in Nicole

18. What is your favorite song?
This I have no idea.

19. What are you doing right now?
She's in tuition.

20. Who do you trust right now?
Nicole, me me me!

21. Where did you get the shirt you are wearing now?
Wow, ever wondered maybe she's not wearing one right now !!?

22. Have you kissed someone in the past week?
Not that I know of.

23. Who is your friend that lives closest to you?
No idea.

24. Describe your life in one word?
Unexpected.

25. Who are you thinking of right now?
Somebody :P

26. What should you be doing right now?
Having tuition.

27. What are you listening to?
Nothing.

28. Who was the last person who gave you a hug?
HAHAHA, NO IDEA.

29. Who was the last person who yelled at you?
Probably her mom or dad.

30. Do you act differently around the person you like?
HAHA, I'm guessing not.

31. What is your natural hair color?
Brownish black?

32. Who was the last person to make you laugh?
No idea.

33. Who was the last person to make you sad?
I don't see her as the sentimental sad type though.

34. What do you hear?
NOTHING.

35. Is your hair curly or straight?
Straight.

36. Has anyone ever called you "scrumptious" before?
No idea.

37. Do you have a best friend?
Yeap, yours truly!

38. Held hands with the opposite sex in the past 3 days?
Perhaps (:

39. Do you use smiley faces on the computer?
Extensively.

40. Have you ever changed clothes in a vehicle?
Someone like her, I'm guessing a yes.

41. Are you happy with life right now?
I guess so.

42. Are you currently jealous?
No!?

43. What jewelry are you currently wearing?
Earrings I think.

44. What were you doing on Friday night?
How the heck would I know. I don't stalk her -.-

45. Have you ever had your heart broken?
Yes, I think so?

46. Have you ever broken some one's heart?
YEAP, many!

47. Is there anybody you're really disappointed in right now?
I'm not too sure bout this.

48. What was the last reason you went to the doctor for?
How would I know?

49. How late did you stay up last night and why?
I don't know either.

50. Have you ever dated someone longer than a year?
Nope, deff not.

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It's harder than it looks! Copy to your own note, erase my answers, enter yours, and tag ten people. Use the first letter of your name to answer each of the following questions. They have to be real - nothing made up! If the person before you had the same first initial, you must use different answers. You cannot use any word twice and you can't use your name for the boy/girl name.

1. What is your name : Ching Mae Jin

2. A four Letter Word : Can't

3. A boy's Name : Casey

4. A girl's Name : Chloe

5. An occupation : Clerk

6. A color : Can't think of any

7. Something you'll wear : Cap

8 missing*

9. A food : Cheese

10. Something found in the bathroom: Clothes

11. A place : China

12. A reason for being late : Careless?

13. Something you'd shout : Cibai

14. A movie title : Could It Be

15. Something you drink : Coca-cola

16. A musical group : Coldplay

17. An animal : Cat

18. A street name : Carols Dr. Street

19. A type of car : Camry

20. The title of a song : Crush

I tag :
Nicole Tham (MAEJIN ASKED ME TO TAG MYSELF SO OH WELL, BUT IM NOT DOING IT)

12.6.09 ; 2:30 PM

hey peeps ! studieddddddd ?
i've not. so sorry, i'm not gonna be updating for a litttttttttttttttle while.
well, don't miss me yeaa ! :D
J ; i don't think that i can convince them to let me go tho, ohwell. D:

watch this ! hilarious x10 <3>